haven been updating recently.mainly because i lose the drive to blog everytime i come online.just got a new phone on thursday.i cant say i am totally happy about it.haha.one thing is that the phone's too complicated for me.i have yet to explore it.i shall do it when i feel like it.second thing is that the phone is too big for my hands.hahaha.my smsing speed is now so much slower cos half the time i'm afraid that the phone would slip out of my hands.oh well~

yesterday was parent-teacher meeting session.nothing much to say.the main idea is that promos is in 2 months time.and i know that already.there's so much to do but i am not willing to do them.ms yeo said her jc years were all about mugging and she added she had no life then.it's so ironic for a teacher to relate such an example.she's asking me to work hard, but on the other hand, i must be prepared to not have a life. *rolls eyes* ok, sometimes i make weird expressions at inappropriate times.but i just feel like doing it. *rolls eyes*

recently i thought many people are so fake, so to speak.i am not targetting anyone.but a series of happenings have made me feel this way.seems like no one is totally true to anyone.we live to find out who's destroying our life.

BOOOOOO. post exams blueees~ argh i realised it wasnt pms. i think i am just allergic to the computer. everytime i come online for some time, i get very fed up. fed up with.. i dont know what. maybe just myself.

school's baaaaaaad. i dont get to watch tong2 xin1 yuan2 these days. monday i went for acco concert. hmm, i wouldnt say it's good, but it wasnt bad either. i liked the last two songs! =D and i got to see quite a number of people i know. so at least, it wasnt that bad. watching the concert with liu laoshi wasnt that bad after all. at least, he didnt do what i expected him to do (like take out a pen and paper and start writing down comments.). and so, i reached home at like 10 plus 11 that night. tuesday i studied with my friends. quite a great accomplishment i suppose. i am still aspiring to be a mugger. and so, i reached home at around nine. wednesday there was xiaozu. we have a new tanbo teacher now. the scores were so badly written that after 3 hours, my sight was blurry. reached home close to 830pm that day, just in time to watch Superstar. thursday, which was yesterday, i went for yet another concert. except for the fact that i was much happier! yea, cos rvco was performing in the Chinese Orchestra SYF presentation concert. met many many people, including rvco seniors, saco seniors..lots. =) it's kind of saddening, cos many of us thought rvco didnt perform up to expectations. and when they are placed in between dhs and nyghs, the difference between gold and gwh was sad to say, alot. sigh~ *shrugs* but i was still happy. the ten minutes they performed seemed like an eternity =) and so, i reached home at around 10 plus 11 again. and today when i finally got to watch txy, i didnt understand anything! i couldnt make out why the hell Dayang was in the hospital. =x

sigh~ results. i am not saying. i flunked maths badly. i dont know what to do now. i dont know when i will ever catch up with my work. i am beginning to dislike maths. gRrrrrr.

did DISC personality test again today. though i thought aj must have taken the cheapest package the company could provide, cos the test was so inaccurate as compared to rv's. =x then again, it was rather accurate for me, i am still SIC or SCI.

that's all for today. *attempts a smile*

i've learnt something today.i will do my best not to be overly-giving towards others.

hmm. common tests week is finally over. okie, i know i dont sound the least excited, but..argh no buts. i just dont feel thaaat excited. =/ something's got into me today. maybe pms. *shrugs*

Watched Project Superstar on thursday. Seriously, i think the voting system is totally wrong. i mean, it's just so wrong. A few of the good singers were being voted out. i really wonder what kind of super star they are going to produce. Someone who's popular, (among his/her circle of friends, most prob.) but can't sing well? tsk, it's screwed.

anyways, yesterday i finally watched initial D! yeps, with yuqian =D we had no paper yesterday, which was GOOD. haha, because i was late (again, i know =x) we had to smuggle macs, bubble tea and chips in. so we pigged our way through the whole movie. yupps, and i can only conclude that jay is soooo cuuute! =DDD really! his ai4 li3 bu4 li3 seh makes him really cute. *wide grin* yupps, and edison chen looks better, much better, with hair. =)

after that we went to rent a movie to watch at yuqian's house. And shaohong was making his way there too. we took a super long time to decide what to get. And yuqian had to pick all the m18 shows =/ (haha, she'd better not read this..) okie so in the end, we picked 'Windstruck', much to shaohong's dismay. i supposed to cry during the show but i didnt. the story was touching, was sad too, but maybe it's just another typical fairytale, that didnt move me. Or maybe, my mind was just somewhere else.

and in the morning, yuqian, shaohong and i (yes, 3 of us again.) went all the way to chinatown for kbox. didn't really enjoy myself that much. there must be seriously something very wrong with me these few days. i am not in the mood for anything. =/ i realised just now that i am not making good use of my life. =x i am not involved in any activity that makes my life cong1 shi2. i can't take it anymore! And i see so many of my friends getting involved in activities that help them, improve them, mould them, in different aspects. and i am just wasting my life away, worrying about this and that. arrrrghhh. i am getting pissed off with myself. i sincerely, truthfully, honestly hate all that's going on.

didnt go for youth service today. *shrugs* somehow think i cant fit in there. everytime i go there, i feel so inferior. i feel uncomfortable. and i am forced not to be my usual self. everything's just going terribly wrong. maybe i should just go to the main service with my parents. sigh~

what's life all about?